LadyMadelineInHell

ok my parents piss me off more than ever my dad screams at me judging and putting down everthing i belive in. im not a very political person and my dad freakes cuz i dont sit there and ask him all the time what he went thre in a war. im sorry if i dont want to hear stories of how you were shot at and how all these people are off dying. i support the military cuz i grew up with it, but that doesnt mean im interested in it. then he sayed im an artsy dumb ass and all my friends and the music i listen to is gay. i mean wow i know you didnt like it but putting down everything good thats goin in my life really hurts. i ended up crying all fuckin n

ok so today was really not the best. ive been doing so much thinking latly and my mind is going crazy on getting things organized in my life. what i need to do and what im going to do. i feel so pushed around by my parents on doing what they want me to do and having no room for myself. i wanna make them proud and happy, i really do. but is just seems that making them happy doesnt make me happy. and thats hard for me because im such a person pleaser type. if you are upset i wanna be the one to cheer you up. but n e ways, i went on a job interview today at freakin taco bell. wtf am i thinking, oh im not becuase my mom set this up for me ugh